Blog Post Title Five
The topic of the night is boys- well I guess you could say relationships in general. There are many things that come with being in a new location. One of those things being a new crowd…new boys…fresh faces and new hearts to break. Just kidding, we don’t ever intentionally break hearts. We only ever intentionally ghost. There’s a difference, I promise. Besides the point- I swore off dating apps. For personal reasons I just don’t want to meet people- sorry men- online, too many bad experiences and unlike some people I don’t want my future boyfriend, husband, significant other chosen from a never ending carousel of questionable characters that shouldn’t have a phone by the looks of these atrocious pictures they deem okay to be seen by the general female population. After swiping for so long, your standards slowly get lower and lower. It’s embarrassing. I’m embarrassed for them. Yet somehow I found my way back into the terrifying world of single and potentially available delinquent boys who think they’re men. Ask me how it’s going- ask- alright alright- I’ll tell you. Not well. Every time I open the app and start swiping I find myself questioning myself. The answer you’re looking for right now is- I’m bored. I haven’t even been here three full days and I am already bored. Not for lack of things to do but I want a crowd of people to belong to and hangout with. Now, let’s self-reflect on this statement. While it isn’t a bad thing to want friends or boys, there is something to be said about feeling the need to have people all the time. Wow, would you look at this. It wouldn’t be the first time I caught myself giving myself therapy… I should call her (my therapist hah hahh).
One of the things I wanted most for myself, in regards to moving, was alone time. Time for myself- to learn, take care of, and rejuvenate. Yes, I would love to have a boyfriend, but it just can’t be the most important thing right now. I have so many goals and dreams that, at this point, will best be accomplished on my own. Exploring new connections is fun… Do I think I’ll pursue any of these guys? Nah. Probably not… They’re so uninteresting. I got a text today- “Do you smoke?” He surely ain’t no prince charming. Don’t count on him to get of his high horse to do anything worth anyone’s time.
I think one of the things I’ve lacked in my 20’s is girl friends. A true, solid group of girls. I feel like with girls at my side there is nothing I can’t do. There is truth to the ‘girl power’ that plagues our society. Don’t knock it till you try it. So cheers, to all my gals out there. Hug your friends, remind them how much you love them. Don’t take that time for granted, not everyone has the same luxury. xoxo.
