Blog Post Title Four

The much anticipated day has arrived at long last. I don’t even know how to feel, and I think that’s what freaks me out. It still doesn’t feel real. I’m sitting in the Denver airport waiting for my next flight to take me to my new home. Why am I not freaking out? People keep telling me this is a huge thing but it just feels ‘meh’. Don’t get me wrong I am very excited, but I feel like something’s either missing or wrong with me. As humans I feel like we are capable of so much more than we accomplish in our day to day life. why is this? Why are people content with doing the bare minimum and living rather less than extraordinary lives? Hah. What is that coming from a 22 year old though? What do I know about life anyway? I can hear the mocking voices already. What does anyone really know about life anyway? Just because someone may have more years under their belt doesn’t mean they’re somehow more credible than me. We’ve all experienced different lives. Now that’s not to say that we won’t encounter the same thing as someone else had years prior (and could learn from their mistake or success) but to assume my life and path will be or needs to mirror another’s is pure lunacy. We are all given a choice in life- What will I do today? Who will I be today? What are my goals? What could I have done better? I think they’re important questions we all need to ask ourselves everyday. Now- I’ll be completely honest, very rarely do I ask myself those specific questions every day, or reflect on the day when the sun goes down and I am lying in bed. 90% of the time I am caught up in the victim mentality as I am mindlessly killing time on social media- I worked all day. I can do something mindless. The question is though, what did I do today? I earned money for myself, spent the day contributing to society because to not is a bad look on myself. While what I’m getting at is also self-serving, it is beneficial. Not just an excuse, but a reason. A reason to wake up passionate about the day and the life we get to live. How spectacular. Instead, I watch as people mindlessly scroll on their phone or fill up time watching a movie. Granted, I do the same, but at what point do you put down the screen and ask yourself, is this it? It is terrible because I find it revolting. Being in the 21st century, there’s not much to do to necessarily avoid people consumed with it (which is sometimes what I’d love to do) so the best I can try to do is monitor myself. Easier said than done, let me tell you. Change your perspective, change your habits. Change your habits, change your life.